The Ugly Truth

Tell me the truth,

Do people love me more than I love myself,

Or value you me more than I value myself,

Or are they valuing themselves and their benefit for my presence?

Tell me the truth God,

Will I ever get out of this cycle?

Will I stop treating myself as a servant, an achiever of everyone else's happiness but my own?

Will I ever stop shelving my plans, goals, and dearest dreams?

Will I let go of this persistent need to please everyone I care about?

Tell me if I am wrong,

I only pretend to love and care for myself, but deep down, I mean nothing to me. 

I Stand Alone

‪And here I stand all alone, looking at the sky so wide, the earth so plain, the oceans so vast, and I'm standing, in the middle, memories flashing, trying to spot the mistakes made. But it was a series of mistakes, a sky so wide mistake, an earth so plain mistake, an ocean so vast mistake, and I stand all alone.‬