Attachment

Hey readers.. or nobody, sometimes I feel nobody reads my blog, but that actually kinda encourages me to write more, because it feels more secure. I'm the type of person that likes to be secure, and not get attached to things because it will not go away easy. I even stopped having tea in the morning because the day that I don't, or when I wake up early, I get a headache.

So there's this app called Memoir that I downloaded a while ago, and then deleted, but I'm still registered and it still can access my social accounts because I didn't stop that. The app basically syncs all your social accounts, even accesses the pictures and videos you take with your phone and things you receive on whatsapp and other IM apps, and then it creates a board of all your memories. Now that I deleted the app I don't have the board anymore, but since I didn't delete the account I still get emails from them. Once in a while, it surprises me with a memory that happened exactly a year ago from this day.

Now getting to my point, a year ago yesterday, I tweeted "Didn't think it was possible But I think I forgot.... Almost". The truth is, I was more like wishing I could forget. When you get attached, it takes a lot of effort to dis-attach, and the more you are attached the more its harder. The tweet was about a person who was..is..will always be important to me, no matter what I say or do. You could try, and try, and keep trying. Replacement could be an answer, but when deep inside you, you don't really want to forget, which I am in this case, it won't work. Getting busy on the other hand could help, a little, or a lot. And when I have just finished college and quit my job and haven't found one yet, it is quiet hard to not think about that person.

Speaking of attachments, doesn't Outlook (formerly Hotmail) suck, is very slow and keeps hanging when you try to attach? Whenever it happens I open my Gmail and VOOM! the email is sent. Sometimes I think of totally switching to my Gmail but the problem is most of my subscriptions are on Hotmail and I am to lazy to switch. I guess I'm attached to Hotmail huh?!

Umm, OK back to the subject..

So here's a piece of advice for all of you out there, or for myself maybe, don't ever get attached to anyone. Love from the bottom of your heart, live your life to the fullest, enjoy and make something out of yourself and let no room be for regret. But don't let people pull you down, and never wait for people to make your day, make it for yourself. Its a matter of limitations, or maybe balancing, that people need to learn. Its hard, I know, but that's how life is.

P.S: Ukh, I know I keep saying that I'll blog more but I don't eventually, I should really change that. OK I promise, one more blog post this week. Want a hint about what is it?.. Remember all the things I wanna learn?.. It's a part of it ;)

That's it for now.

Surf Safely Readers, or Nobody,
Dreamer!

The Jack of All Trades, Master of None

I think I'm cursed. I haven't regretted anything that I have done in my life until now, because I'm sure God knows whats best for me and that all what I do is Written in my books by him and I have faith in him. But I certainly feel lost, clueless, and just really really cursed. Don't get me wrong, I mean I know I just said I believe in God's well and at the same time I said that I am cursed, but that curse is made by me and for me; I'm cursed inside my head.

I don't like complimenting myself at all, I hate being complimented by others even. But, I know I'm smart, I can be successful in my life, I can. But I'm cursed by not knowing what I'm best at, what I should adopt in myself and be devoted to train and develop in myself so I can make a career and a life out of it. And because of that damn curse, I have been jumping around learning all sorts of different things which ended me up with being the Jack of All Trades and Master of None.

As much as I love knowing so many different things, as much as I hate it. I don't know what to do with it or what I must do with my life.

People starts using it as well, like wherever I work. They see me as an "All-in-one" person, just like a printer, and then they start shuffling me around at work. Employers actually always look for that type of person, they find it cheaper for them, just like buying an All-in-one printer.

I took a break,Finally. I quit my job, and I'm about to finish with my bachelor. I'm gonna take my time, although its gonna be hard to be jobless and do nothing, and the hyper type!. But its for the best.

I might eventually find myself, or maybe myself will find me.. :P

Anyways I know I must have given you all a headache.

Surf safely,

Dreamer!.

Do You Wanna Give Up?

Do you ever feel like you want to shut down everything? Like if only there was an off button to all the things that you can't take anymore? I mean there's always a limit for bullshit, and it isn't so much of it that a person take before he/she starts blowing up. Sometimes I feel that my bomb already blew, and I am shattered pieces of my old self, leftovers. And sometimes, I feel that no, I can take a bit more, just wait for a couple of months and then make a change, for now everything is bearable.

Look, I am not the type of person that when my life is bad, I'm depressed all the time - I hate that person. I don't like nagging and whining, but if I am, that means something is seriously wrong. I NEED AN OFF BUTTON, Seriously!

Sometimes I think to travel would be the best thing to do in order to get back on my feet, but when I think about it, I think travel is overrated. Media always promotes travel amazingly, they show it as if it will change your life. But the effect of travel is only short-term, yes its nice and it affects your mood positively afterwards, but for how long? Not long enough for it to be the answer.

When things are bad, don't run away, solve the problem. List down the things that are bothering you so much and start scratching them one by one, I just answered my misery.

That's what I'm going to do, I will make a list of all the bad things that are going on, organize the priorities by the level of annoying-ness (yes, I know that's not a word), and start finding solutions to them one by one. I can't keep on hoping that something will happen while I'm sitting on my a** and doing nothing about it. Miracles don't happen in this lifetime, and definitely not to me.

Let's all move our a**es and start doing something about our lives.

Surf Safely,
Dreamer!