I believe everything happens for a reason. Don’t little
things sometimes happen to you, and then later on something else happens that
makes you understand why the first thing happened to you? As in a little
problem or a person you met or something you discovered helps you with
something else later on. It could be a lesson you learn, or a realization of
facts.. Sometimes it’s something big that will make you change completely and
permanently. That has happened to me.
I mean I always try to enhance from little things and
understand why things work out the way they do. There’s always a reason for
your suffering! It’s something better that God has kept for you just if you
have a little patience, you’ll get to it. And every time it happens, something
changes in me. I change daily and I try to become the best person I could be. A
dear person’s death could really change you.. It could either make you a better
or a worse person. And the change would be drastic. A death of a friend is just
inconsolable. As I believe friends are gifts from God, meeting those unique yet
similar to you people, getting to know them, seeing how they stand beside you
for no reason, teach you what they know and just love you for no reason at all
is a great gift from God. And losing that gift has unexplainable sorrow. And
then you’d think; what if I die tomorrow? Will they remember me? Will they pray
for me? Did I make a difference? Did I help someone become a better person? Was
it enough and was it all that I could have done? I am also a gift from God so
did I use myself well?
So I decided to change all the bad things I see in myself.
To become a better person, a better Muslim! I’m quitting a lot of things that I
used to do.. And now is the hard part. When you force yourself to get changed,
a lot of things and people try to stop it. The little devil in everyone and in
you tries to make you the worse person that you could turn to. But I have
faith. I have decided and no one can change my mind. For I know that this is
the right thing to do – This is my right decision.
I don’t think I’ll ever become good enough for me, I’ll
always want to be better. I want to excel!
Surf Safely,
Dreamer!
